Oceans...

Rushing, running with eyes closed,
I play like a child with worries none.
Never being closer to the ends,
Never touching the shores to heart,
And never swept by the wild winds so much,
I find myself warmed and content.
It calls to me again and again with cries,
Seeming each one be wept for me.
Longing for so long for it, when at last
I find it touching me, smothering me with love,
And asking for my eternal presence inside it,
I say to self, that I've seen the ends
And for ever can I walk with none,
For I've seen the worlds' loneliest daughter
Pitching for finding it's place
In my inner minds.
That never ending roar,
Those tears calling through the sands,
Scared away by my rush and I, never
Opening my wintered eyes, could never be one.
I'm no more a child but a being that exists not.   
 

White petals...

Strange that everything is light like air!
Flowing winds, carrying my thoughts along,
And myself along, take me
Through all the seven hidden worlds
Until I could smell the perfumes
Drizzling from your embellished hairs,
Embellished in natures finest petals.
This world is no more an illusion in the eyes!
It is but a illusion wherein I walk
Emptied, nascent and free
With nothing tracing my existence.
I'm both here and trascent-
Here- for your presence filled me
With the vital forces that carry me.
Yet eternal for my senses are sanctified
Feeling you and all that's yours!
And that which solely belongs to myself
Belongs not anymore for my soul disowned me
For your sake. Wish I that I shall find
There at your bosom, a refuge till all ends...

Voices

The voice ends or is tending to.
And the world beams it's heavy hand
To grapple off the podium,
Dragging the very surface I stand on.
I look back, smile and envy the long day
That took from the unending music
Of true nouns I every which way walked with.
And so the unreal objects that I danced with.
Am I in a time different from what I lived?
Or am I now with a soul that's lost
Into the everlasting silence I once craved for?
Ah! That silence that I only spelt but
Never seen or felt until now.
Scared away now, I crave to rush back,
With a longing I can no more sing about.
Is that a lost word? Or a world lost?
An unjust act thrusted upon me, benumbing.
For the yet-to-take-birth thoughts I stand forth,
Carrying truth with my breath and word,
And inching towards the time I shall live again.
The voice never ends.

Never to return

I've been drenched in your love. And am dreaded still
That I could see no tomorrow if never comes this night
This night alludes me. Of the want that can kill
Till I see thee near me. And till you bring in me the light

Nor did I see you all day. And fear I can no more wait
Your smile can only fill my thirst. But no joy ever can.
I rushed to care for you, mind? Now you ought be no more late.
Fate that speaks for itself. And fate that held down this man.

I spoke not of thy beauty. I never could be so mean.
For you would desert me till death. And that left me daunted.
Never be it if you ever were to return. A moment that be seen
Queen, shall I not praise thee, of the world I never conquered.

Wonder that I never bespoke that you are in every that is mine
My breath, my eyes, my mind, and the solitude that you had stolen
I know, I know. You are gone forever but still I'm all thine
Nine of my lives I owe to penance. No greater can my pain be swollen.

The counts

I count over my fingers, all that many moments
I've been distanced from being within your care
All of those that had thoroughly consumed me
All of those that impaired my mental faculties,
Vitiated my psyche and obliviated my cognition
I feel to this very instant the living death I've had
The very feeling that time had held my breath,
And strangled me till my life was nigh oozed out,
And last dribble of my blood seemed to wither away
Oh! Am I alive? Or am I at the gates of infernal hell?
I can no more feel the pain for my senses have
Exterminated by their-selves- for the thirst that'd never
Been quenched, the smell that was never smelt
For the warmth that never soothed my turbulent heart
And for the form that existed within me has ne'er been
Formed by my eyes again- by the beams of my hope.
Dead or alive, whatever be me. If alive I shall one day
Feel your beat. If dead you certainly shall feel my soul.
Awake I'd be till that moment. And I shall count'em all.

Damsel at window ...

While you peep into the world out of your cocoon
The sun shines with an aura and blush those stars
Which hide into the veil of the cloudy shades
A subtle smile from your moon like countenance
Can trample even the most callous hearts
And hath it's presence into deepest of dreams
With the slenderness of a french damsel
And tenderness of a fresh spawned rose
While you hold my unrelenting gaze towards you
And cherish in my memories which have born just
Shalth not any man give away his world for you?
For the priceless moments that forever brings those
Blissful images that are to forever stay into mind? Nay.

Forgetful...

While running the repertoire of our lives' routine
Our mind tends to become forgetful
Of the subtleties that had once been immensities
That had occupied even the subtlest of our being itself
But as time does the defiling of its nature,
Those moments tend to loose their sheen
And obliviated be those who'd its very substance been.

In the moment I realized that it was you and
Your memories, whose form failed to contain in me
I erupted into what would else-wise be perceived
To be in a state of utter chaos. I but pledge
That my reverence to you and my fidelity
Towards you - be sustained until my last breath
And until the least of my living symbionts.

With this promise I shall now emancipate myself
From the restraints that have been binding me here
To this mean world. And shall undergo the catharsis
Of the worldly emotions and materials except
For your enigma, and for the veritable beauty that you are
Which alone, I believe can sublime my existence to eternity.

Starry Night ...

Oh! Such a beautiful starry night
I'm amazed to gaze into it's deeps
Adorned the way you bejewel self
With the pearls that twinkle over you
To the days you filled the light
And the colours of my life that ye were
It pulled me back, to moments I'd been in
This deja vu I'm now feelin'
Far not love. It feels only yesterday.
The days we made together
But it feels for-ever and far as ever
Hopeful tomorrow each moment I look for.

All a sudden it's become clouded
It felt just like that day we parted
Into their gloomy shadows faded
Each of those beauties I'm now deprived
When until shall I wait for thee?
For the rain of love you to pour over me
Withering I am in all the blood
And case the same with my breath
Save me heart and fill me with life
And with your care to vigorate mine
I beg, I beg till your heart shalt melt
And till my soul's pain, to you it reacheth.

A past...

When I tend to read through my memory
I recognize you were there a past full
This moment may not be so far, but what
I felt, it had happened a life away
May be that it was only a dream, Or
May be when I was passive to the world
I now realize it was really real and true it was
But that only I lie helpless here
It welters my heart as though my breath
Swooned until lies in me- else but no life
And like I had a terrible pouring of ever
Distressing times which fail to leave me
What at all shall I do for me?
Shall I erase all the past I fancied each day? Or
Shall I move into a tranced inane self?
I seek no answers from thee. Not a silence either.
Yeah, how would you know for you'd never
Looked into me. Alas! You'd ever wanted not.
I'm turning this page down and never I shall moan
For that was just a memory which I'd just un-sown.

Libertine...

Libertine, as though I'm, in thoughts and actions
Yet strangled into the mores of this world, by time
The scruple - only one of such- that turns up in me
Is for your sake, for your preeminence in my mind
That I take forth along with my humble senses
And that I fantasize to be in the Elysium of earth
As I lie in you, looking into your calmly eyes
While dreaming of my future that I'd vested with you
You but tantalize me and deprive me
Of thimbleful pleasure, your love, that I seek
For that be the lone sake I here remain
I can blissfully pass - let be it- to the infernal world
Or paradise. I possess no qualms or angst for this.
I hope that the Libertine in me would unfurl
As my soul would flow far. And fly farther
From you, and your bonds. It's not far from now.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P.....

Our days pass as though we haven't known each other
As you veered into a world of oblivion, while I still wake for day
In hope of hearing your word, while strangely it wanders in me
Through all those memories that reap me down to nothingness
Relentlessly they remind me of our times that truly were ours

While all the world I knew was just you and me and the sand castles
That I built while you broke right into'em. Yet smiling your way
With an innocent blush which compelled me to hold no grudge for you
Yes I remember them, those empty days when you deserted me
What did I know of anything? I missed none but your shoulders

And the days of our play. While we ran past air and you crouch
So as to lead me into your pranks and raise to slap me over
I could never manage your peppy moves but again they waver me
Away and then so far you went. Mind I wept for thee unspoken
Times, each I had none to express. What say I ? And who else to?

Lo all these years so away we were. Holds us still, the tender affection
We built while we played and fought under the same sun and rain
Sharing the deep emotions and pains through a flimsy veil of friendship
That bonds us and closes-in, in its love and holy spirit, protecting forever
In possession I'm- a gem, the closest of my friends that you are.

Her fondered child...

The pearls that flow from your eternal eyes
To the womb of mother earth, while
Her swollen hearts' pain tumults her
As she's enraged against the cause
Of the distress you holdeth in thy mind
She can not see her fondered child
A pristine wonder, you, to carry forth
The agony of the worlds that she once
Bore into herself, while being bereft
Of all the heavenly delights
For you, which she parted with
Yet this moment brings her to dire past
That she never wanted you to even glimpse
But as time fabricated and schemed this
To impose upon you, it's wrath

For I beholden to her, my life
She turned to me, as I promised her
To protect you like your shadows
And to be with your tear drops in thine eyes
To cleanse and faden your pains
I'm here for her promise, I'm here for you
I'm here for this life, to walk you through.

Enchanted...

I walk. I tread. And I stagger. I then fall.
For the promise I had made, even if I had to crawl
Waketh I. To carry moments parting us and the step each
My eyes nearing you. For all the strength, I beseech
His almighty.And over and over your name I drawl.

Brings me to our days, the hope that I carry along
Along with my dwindling breath and my sapless song
I wonder. If my memory is what I am, why taketh not it
To that priceless age. Yes aware I am it taketh all grit
For passing to you, to your shelter- the last of I long.

While even nature has pouncing upon- as it whips me
And by the mares that oppress and that make me flee
Deprived I'm, of sleeping with beautiful nights
And ceasing to the netherworld is among my frights
Yet it's for you. That such world, still binds me free

The way I was bewitched and enchanted, I'm reminiscent,
By your eternal charm which rendered me nescient
For all those blissful instants I was before you, except
For all the delighted and animated of my senses' percept
This very spell you had on me keeps my journey incessant.

A feeling...

In the moments while musing over the deepness of your eyes
My mind traverses through the strangest of the worlds

It's the feeling about you which entwines my spirits
To your hallowed and revered smile which enraptures me
At the merest gander. Confines me, your serene demeanor
To the microcosmic expanse comprised only of our souls

Luxuriant expressions you bear over your countenance
Alludes me to the beauties of seas. Resembles your hands
To the tender ones of mermaids awaiting their mates
I can only see twinkling stars in your blinking eyelashes

With your voice as mellifluous as the notes of a clarinet
A peaceful composure creeps in and substantiates my form
While flows from you, music of rarest and angelic delicacies
That surpasses in merit, the sweetest of nightingales

Your dance innervates me and I'm enmeshed and lost
Into the intricate pattern your foot steps make, which
Is indelibly inked in my heart, my eyes and my psyche
I've become a slave of your art and am caught up in you

Enamored by your beauty without which I be enfeebled
It's that feeling that forever binds my spirits to you.

Love you...

I was walking down lane when I saw you first
For a moment I'd forgotten my origins
I felt the fragrance of the most piquant perfumes
And the ethereal space around me was filled
With your images floating around, yet holdeth not I
Subtlest of my senses titillated at your presence
Sheer heavens, called I the world for it created you
The touchstone of beauty and acme of perfection of god
Momentously my heart developed a craving for you
Love that never existed- invigorated in my soul
I'd found myself lost in your thoughts
If god giveth me a boon, I asketh his grace thy presence
With you, I conquer death and the cosmos
My love for you transcends to the farthest
And nigh impossibly imperceptible horizons
I love you to the depth of seas and that of skies
I love you my love. I love you.

A murder in the Villa

Lady of the house wakes from her repose
Her eyes seem to still be in lassitude
And her countenance in a state of morose
She pulls her night robes and asks
her maid to belt the corset and gown
Trembling and quivering walks she, briskly
To her man who was to head for town
As she closes him, she collapses into tears
Narrates the phantasm she bore that night
About gruesome creatures that flew over her
And macabre masquerade she danced in fright
She begs him not to desert her the time
He takes the mistress into his shoulders
And kisses her on forehead and construes her
Of the loss imminent, less the business
Comes she into her wits and let's him to way

Distressed and dreaded still, she moves to attic
And lies for a nap. A heavy voice nears to her
In a blink she finds herself in a castle, frantic
A man in black cloak walks her to the ball
While she asks if it was all a dream
"Yes my lady", answers he, "You're with death.
The ruler of this place and our supreme.
He's accepted you as a part of our spirit"
Palpitantly she runs towards a window
And jumps off, to only wake up in a shrill
None would come to her except for her shadow
She finds herself again, in midst of night
Lightly she walks and treads, as does a cat
And crawls she like a reptile. None yet in sight
Only until a strange sound filled the space

She rushes and gets into her possession a knife
Blunt enough to bruise and sharp enough to pierce
This side. Nah! That side. Echo is all at rife
Waves of tremor rippled down to her heart
At the door! Tells her mind of something bleak
She stands by it's side and awaits the moment
And then opens the door with creak and a squeak
Steady is she, like a pard that does for it's pray
At the flash of it's entrance, she jumps on
And stabs into it's neck and thumps it down
Follows a cry of pain and a cry of groan
She crouches to see and turns it around
A moment of stillness. Her heart freezes
Her blood seizes to flow. Her mind stagnates
Her vitality seems to end in all creases
As she realizes she murdered her own man.

Boredom ...

We've here many phases, that walk us down a day
Common to rejected, also to the dejected- nay
Ones we live with and those that've us, surround
Boredom creeps in our lives, and gets by- frowned

No one to share and noneth work that fits our flair
Nor we shall prepare. For we know, we be in despair
It pulls us from all there, and yes does from here
No more can we bear. Yet couldn't stop us to sere

Days go on this way, and all our nights- they pass away
What to light shall we say? And what to light shall we say?...:(

Can I be of worth some? After all I'm turning phantom
Not atleast gruesome. And not atleast beyond fathom
World seems like a desert with not an oasis around
Boredom creeped into my life, and had me all drowned

Each moment I'm on- counting, still time lays me waiting
Ah! Sleep does no abating, have no one that does the waking
Slowly my mind is corroding and something I see in, erazing
Feareth I while it's fazing, feareth I as it does the razing

Nights go on this way, and all my days- they pass away
what to stars shall I say? And what to stars shall I say?...:(

L'amour immortel...

The moment I've seen you in my real senses
My emotions galvanized into an excitement
Which in my notions, have taken a living form
Alongside me, sharing elan vital of my existence

I've conceived you in my thoughts, and nurtured you
And this contour of yours has already become myself
You are in my shadows along with mine, silhouetted
And even in the most tenuous of my substance

With my art, I've molded you into the most exquisite
And most elegant beauty, the worlds have ever known
Mere sight at your sumptuous visage cause in me
An ensemble of music and dance, which pulsate my heart

Into this very creation of mine, I'm consumed in
Wherein lies my thoughts and my implicit presence
You've become a prisoner of my eyes, the thirst
Of which can only be gratified by your poignance

I offer you now the wine of my love by which
I shall immortalize you and we would transcend
To the blissful paradise I've structured for us
In armor of love, where we shall live in perpetuum.

Reveries ...

When people talk about memories
All what they want is to reel back time
To the moments of play and days of fun
Which they miss and that are tending to fade

But this poor being has them here engrossed
Each and every moment from past, deeply sorbed
And fenced into the very fabric of my thoughts
They've already become a part and so define me

They tend to cause to create inchoate fantasies
Composed I am of, which prempt my faculties
I'm caught up in reveries, in dawn and dusks
My eyes form a clear projection of the same

My mind turns into a delirium of joy and of pain
While smile floats up- me and tears crawl down
I don't miss them anymore. For I'm taken into them
As if time has played charades with me, I'm lost in

This new world of reminiscences, I'm longing
To remain there and I'm skeptic if I'm ever to return
Dreams are the only place in this world. That show us
Reflections of memories. And compliment of the reality.

Miss you...!!!

If you ask how far, I would say worlds apart
I heard from you last, not a less, feel a decade past

Yet you are near to me, right here in my heart's cove
And I hear you close, through the music of my love

It's out of count now. The times I broke of the pains
That rips me off and Ah! Gushing through my veins

I can't bear any more. Still I keep things to my chest
But one day sure, the feelings may rush out, I lest

If only words express love, I shalt fail to venture mine
Eyes and voice, and my soul's essence, all render me thine

If I am calm and still, my care for you is no less
Only that I wait for you and your word, to have me in bliss

I have no birds here, that carry my sonnets to thee
And tell you how much I miss you, and my hope to see!!!